Self or Sacrifice

Tonight I will make a bed of my tears

I will curl up beside weariness

And remind my heart of its right to feel, even when it hurts

I will undress until I am down to nothing

I will forget what it means to be strong

And lay my burdens to rest atop my pillow case

I am sorry echoes

Pride shatters

Ego fades and there she is,

Making home of pity

Sometimes life costs too much

Coping makes living less easy

& pretending makes it all seem impossible

I am spiraling back.. weeping again

There I am

Seeking refuge in shame

I can not cover your wounds and tend to mine all at the same time

I wish I knew how

I wish I knew sacrifice

Because it is hard trying to love someone back to safety

When you are drowning in the shallow of your own tears

Before night ends I hope to find reason to wake…